Musings from the Heart by: Juliet Dalagan
Ten years ago, Rommel and I joined Kahayag. Now, we are underway members of the community. Being in community did not spare us from the tides of life. But going through them only sustained our faith.
Personally, I would say that joining community and committing myself to its way of life is my personal response to God’s unconditional love for me and my family. It is a vindication of my past misgivings on God’s faithfulness in my life. 
My faith in God was severely tested when we were financially challenged and the children were not in the best of health; when I woke up in my worst nightmare regarding my credit card dilemma. I felt I would go crazy looking for a way to be credit-card free. I was hooked. My response then was to lie low in community activities because I felt that God did not care and was simply passive and silent about my concerns.
The loving Father that He is, God showed me the light through the community teachings. I remembered memorizing bible verses when we were having the basic bible course. Each verse seemed to be the answer to all my doubts. The foundations courses as well led me to hang on to God and kept me strong through tough and rough times.
The community teachings also enriched me in my working place. I was given the task to be the spiritual formation committee head maybe because my officemates saw my being a Kahayag. The teachings on Christian parenting and marriage enrichment as well nurtured my being a Christian mother and wife, respectively.
Ten years had passed. My life is challenging…I am still not perfect and will never be. I am still a sinner, a work in progress. I still experience trials and disappointments. And most importantly, I am still in Kahayag. Why? Because, this is my response to my Father who never left my side, who continuously shower my life with bountiful blessings.
God is very generous to me. He blessed me with 3 beautiful kids, a very supportive husband and a loyal househelp who’d been with us for the last 8 yrs. And guess what? I don’t have a credit card anymore. What more can I ask? But to give back to God what He deserves, my commitment to Him through community life. My mantra in life is, “Be a Kahayag wherever I go and whatever I do”. To God be the glory and honor!
A Transformed Life
by: Duque Caguindangan
I graduated from the Empowered Christian Living Seminar (ECLS) of Kahayag in 2005 and joined community weekend in 2007. I’ve been a public servant for about 15 years now and my membership with Kahayag was through the invitation of Ann Sivila, a former colleague from the Department of Education.
My life before Kahayag was different. I am the loner type since college days until the present, I didn’t have any affiliation with any civic or social group whatsoever. I was happy then if I can hear mass every Sunday and can work 5 days a week. My prayer time was not that serious. I was only focused in my routinary work such that I even spent time in school during Saturdays & Sundays.
Until such time, I felt there was something lacking in me. I was longing and yearning. I finally realized that I need to know more about God and fix my relationship with Him.
Last 2008 I was assigned to head a small school situated in a depressed barangay. The children studying thereat are poor and marginalized. Without second thought I accepted the challenge. I knew and I believed that it was God’s plan. It was an opportunity to educate and bring back God into their lives.
I found out later that the school needs repair not just in terms of its physical and academic structures but more importantly its spiritual foundations. I realized that I need to help shape first the dedication and commitment of my school workers who are supposed to help me in the work but where I experienced a lot of problems. There was a time that I wanted to quit. But I always remember the passage in 1 Corinthians 15:58 and 1Peter 5:7.
In the midst of my frustrations, I offered all my worries to God whom I knew was always with me. I kept praying and shared my concerns with my men’s group and pastoral leader God is indeed good. He told me not to give up, not to lose hope and to continue serving. And I realized all my prayers were answered.
The community has encouraged me to move on. My brothers and sisters in District D did some works of mercy in my school and they distributed white T-shirts as uniforms and some school supplies to the children. The children and their parents appreciated such gesture. They realized there are people around who still care.
Truly, the community has not only become an instrument in bringing hope to the lives of our less fortunate brothers and sisters but it has also continuously drawn me into a strong personal relationship with God with whom I experienced a lot of transformation.
He opens the way...
by: Benie Sy
n my baptism, God gave me new birth. He gave me my family and community. As His child I know “He give all He has for His Children.” (Gal 4:7). His redemptive love demonstrated this and I personally experienced this love when I was asked during the Baptism of the Holy Spirit or Empowerment of the Holy Spirit at the community’s Christian Life Program (CLP) to turn away from sin and receive the gift of the Holy Spirit (Mat 1:4). By then, my infant baptism and confirmation just came to light with its fullness and meaning. 
Thus, from darkness He gave me the “Kahayag sa Diyos” (light of God) thru baptism. That was almost 20 years ago and I still feel the peace of my reconciliation to my real Father. Few years back before Kahayag, our home was situated right beside the chapel of Our Lady of Perpetual Help. Yet during that time, I was never involved in her activities nor contributed anything to her feast day and to the chapel renovation.
It was an arrogant life, relying only to myself. I recalled an incident when my wife was bedridden for a year after our second child. God gave me a dream that someday I would be involved in building a church and community. This dream gradually unfolded. Since I joined Kahayag, I was at the forefront of evangelization and community building. Also, I was chosen as the parish pastoral council president at our subdivision where the task of building a church and community became a reality.
I experienced His goodness when He literally stayed in my prayer room for nine years! During that time the church’s construction was in progress, the tabernacle had to be temporarily kept at my prayer room. I appreciated this very much that I had no other means to show my gratitude to Him except to be ready at all times to respond to His tasks.
My continuous prayer now is to be fit, equipped and faithful till the end. I am confident in the mission challenges I am facing. I also know the difficulties that lie ahead. My confidence rests on the assurance that He has plans for us individually and corporately. He is ahead of us. He opens opportunities for all of us who respond to His call.
As St. Paul says, “When I arrived in Troas to preach the Good News about Christ, I found that the Lord had opened the way for the work there.” 2 Corinthians 2:12(TEV)
IT PAYS TO BE PATIENT
by: Tonette Paalam
For three months I was looking for good deals for a dining set over the internet and saw a lot that suit my liking. Unfortunately, I got too busy that when I inquired again the items were already sold. I kept on thinking about the opportunities missed while pacifying myself that maybe that stuff was not for me. Later I saw another one that I totally liked but the price was just too much. I nonetheless inquired thru email. While waiting I had the opportunity of glancing at a similar set with a much, much lower price. With the help of my son Gerald, I was able to haggle unbelievably for a price which was 75% off from the previous one. We checked it right away and got the item which was dazzingly comparable to all the other units I previously saw over the internet. I felt God just rewarded me for patiently waiting.
In another instance, I went to a store to buy household items. While falling in line to pay to the cashier, the store manager asked me to move to the other side of an aisle stand. As I moved, the lady behind me swiftly overtook my position. I told the manager that the lady is supposed to be behind me but the lady refused to budge in even when asked by the manager insisting that I got a lot of stuff while she had only a few. I gave in and let her go. After paying the cashier, I waited for my sister. Surprisingly, the manager approached me and offered me discounts on my purchases because of the incident. I told her it was okay with me and he doesn’t have to care. But he insisted saying that I deserved such incentive. So they gave me 10 % off for my current purchase and another $20 off for my next purchase. I was completely overwhelmed and had my sister used the $20 discount for her purchases that day. I know God again has rewarded me for keeping my cool and responding calmly over the situation.